Denial -Musings of a Bad girl #5

Why do some people mistake a high standard woman for a gold digger? Beats me.Its simple. If you can’t tell the difference,  go get an education. 

When Frank called me a “gold-digger”, because I said I was going to leave him after he lost his job for more than a year and  He didn’t do anything to keep busy instead he had this unusual relaxed air of optimism that things were gonna get better and a great opportunity was going to come knocking on his door,

I was shocked at first at the allegation then enraged and I made sure to trash his house and destroy his valuable paintings before leaving. I always acted so confident when deep down I was scared and unsure just like everybody else,  I think. 

I was the independent woman at her most aggressive best. I was hungry for success and I breathed pure and unfiltered ambition. I wanted to be the best woman ever. I remember looking at other girls and women with disdain and an exaggerated air of superiority. I was proud and unapologetic. Some people called me a rude girl, some said I was a snob and then, I didn’t really think much of what anyone said about me. I believed I was always right with very rare exceptions when someone else was able to out-right me. 

I believed I had faults and bad sides… Who doesn’t anyway. But I never believed that I could be accused of digging for Gold. At least the accusation should be accurate. There was no Gold anywhere that I could tell. I believe a woman should be independent financially and shouldn’t depend on the riches and hard work of another person. I’ll be where I want to be when the time comes, what’s so wrong in wanting someone who is already there waiting for me when I am ready.

But anyway what’s wrong in wanting your other half to be as successful and accomplished as you would like to be. What’s wrong in wanting someone to be as ambitious as you.  

Now some of you may think I am in denial but I believe my points are valid. If you have a contrary opinion to that, please share by all means.  Xoxo #Thebadgirl 
Charis Black. 

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